Last week I had a reminder that what I was doing was ok. As I was having a bad day and feeling down about the direction I was taking. I was at a gathering when someone said to me “man you are busy Run Boy Run Productions is everywhere!” I paused Smiled and said thank you. The funny part is that when I walked into the building I had been in my feelings and felt like I was doing things wrong and that looking out for others was setting myself up for failure. It was in that moment when she said those words it helped me to understand what I was doing was ok and looking out for others was ok too. I felt so good about that moment then other things started popping up on my time line that also leaned into helping me to understand what I was doing was ok. After awhile I made sure I got on my messenger and let the UE family know about this as I look at the moments as a reflection of them and what we all have made. In my mind I am no more then a person that allows others to bring strength and life into a creation and when they do it is noticed. With that being said I told them how proud I am of them and all they have done throughout the years. For me so many deserve the praise that comes with this and through the years many and I’m not talking about just the actors but the collaborators, the team members, and the volunteers without any this feeling of strength is because of them. And with that moment I sat down to understand and feel ok.
That’s what makes acting so attractive. You get to break all your own rules.”Gerardine Clark”
The beauty of acting is allowing yourself to let go and take on roles that you never thought you would do. In many ways this is your inner voice ready to dive into the unexpected and see if things are possible. In the end it is here when one finds them self and realize that it was always the fear of exploring that held them back that will never do so again.
Yesterday was a great day at rehersal. It was the beginning of going over the first 6 scenes of the play. It felt good watching the cast coming into play with their parts, utilizing the vision of imagination to see a subway scene that was not there and improvising aqctions jestures and words to help bring life to their characters and to scenes even when all they had to do is be onseekers to rachetness or two young brothers listening to elders telling them what to do or a lover that needed to come to a point of understanding that her man needs her.
I am blessed to see the blend of poets and actors ready to take the challenge and show the world a vision that i have been dreaming of brought to life. The challenge has begun and the FringeArts Festival is in the distance waiting for us. Now all we ask, will you be a passenger on this ride as well….
You ever sit on a subway train and not want to get up when the seat heats up? It’s like not wanting to give into the problems awaiting you at work or home but its very helpful in de-stressing the time. Often I find myself closing my eyes and giving into the warmth accepting it as if I was in the sun soaking in rays of light even just for a moment of joy. Looking forward to the summer time in Florida, the Caribbean or in Vegas just knowing I don’t have to get up for work or deal with the winter cold even just for a moment.
Man it’s one of those moments that you can only get when your ready for it and in that minute as you sit you are ready for calm, for peace, for it never to end. It’s good on those days when you are full of aches an pains of the flu and just waiting to get home in bed. It’s good in those mornings when all you want to do is rest. It’s the best feeling in the world but like all good things it comes to an end. The 15 minutes of electric relaxation with headphones on and it only cost a token, a moment of time…